Cheese omelette

Today seemed quite a lousy day.. In fact, since incident 30/9/10, it completely changed me. Friends around me noticed a turn in attitude, behaviour, the frequent aftershocks and the tone I speak. " Haoen, are you okay?","are you alright","what happened". Lied to them. "yea I'm fine" is often used to pacify them. She too, assured me that she's alright. I doubt so. Read her blog and found out that she's feeling awful by her results. Dunno why I felt dampened even though my spirits are very low. Cooking and messaging helps. Made my favorite cheese omelette plus receiving an SMS, that cheered me up a little.
Hope tomorrow might be a better day. Good luck to you, Hao En. And "you" too!^^

Message ( Part 2)

In the past few days, I've been using one-word or just a few words in my messages. It isn't fair! Am I beginning to get influenced by her? In a dilemma I was. After much much consideration, I decided to continue with my style: sentenced messages.

Awkward situation

Been in the school library studying since 10am. Two hours later.. An acquaintance of mine shared the same table with me. "you're handsome" was the first thing she said to me. Panic and shock overwhelmed me. I feel AWKWARD. Then she smiled smittenly at me. Are her eyes smeared with poo? Oh please, I'm so ugly. Why would someone said those things at me? Solution: pretend not to hear it and do not look into her eyes when I speak. That worked! In my mind, I wanted to tell her that I am fond of & love & like & adore another girl. Would "she" mind if I tell my acquaintance that I'm deeply in love with "her" even if it's a one-sided affair?

Message

"yea","nope","ok" and etc...hated to use them in messages. Therefore I liked writing sentenced messages as they could describe how you feel. Oftenly. If the recipient sends a one word message, there are two things that I could see into them. First, they are not too close with you or second, they want to maintain a line of defence. A barrier. In my case, it is the latter. I could not blame someone about this. It's her privilege and I can't force her. Right?