Feeling Bad

Errr... Started my decent job as a relief teacher in my previous secondary school, today, for the first time. So I'm still not used to it- I need to change my strategy, or else spouting vulgarities when getting pissed off by rowdy students not only will not work, and will jeopardize my job.. I need to be strict and at the same time be fluctuant in my behaviour. I need to control my already foul temper

#howimiss

#howimiss getting up early to wish you good mornings; #howimiss sending goodnight messages to you; #howimiss looking at you over a distance because I'm shy; #howimiss getting jealous over you; #howimiss texting with you; #howimiss caring over you; #howimiss getting all anxious, worried and worked up over you; #howimiss your smile; #howimiss the days that my cold jokes could cheer you up; #howimiss your voice over the phone; #howimiss the days you were staring at me unknowingly with me noticing; #howimiss glaring stupidly at you; #howimiss the moment I sneezed my glasses off and looking at you giggling at me; #howimiss the days I hope that you were there for me; #howimiss

Anxiety

Has been raining since Saturday. Loved listening to the sound of rain splattering on the hard concrete pavement outside. How I wish to lie on the green pastures with the rain continuously washing down the tears off my cheeks. Misunderstanding- trigger of all unhapiness; It made me lose friends; it made me nearly lose my love

Perhaps it's time for a chill