我被赶出家门

More than words

Yes girl, I don't need you. Because I, not only want you, I need you at the same time. It's just that 我需要你的时候，你却不在。但当我在你身旁慰问时，我却不奢侈你这样对我。But Every time I would be guessing your feelings and everything because I'm just afraid you might get annoyed at what I've asked, every-single-day, even if you don't, I would get sick of myself asking you all of this. As someday you would just acknowledge me as a crazy creeper, or if I'm just being too impatient over things? Not mentioning you makes me feel worse over a period of time, as of presently. However, making up that crazy plan not only makes most of you (with many of my cliques having the idea I'm a jerk) irritated by me, it also gave me the thrust to move on, reason being I have no courage to do this. Told some of my friends and they helped shared my burden. The true friends who could really understand me can be counted using a hand.


Even you now have him, I'm still quite bothered over you

Change

I must really thank Ivan a lot. I'm a pathetic no life loser. He was right about this; I couldn't accept sarcasm much less comments. No reasons or excuses for this. Just a temporary adaptation. Had to wait till March to have a decent job and when school opens in April, I will get a new life

Aerial

Yesterday, which is a few hours earlier, is just a normal cardio day.. Went to gym( not those kind of body building gym but for gymnastics ) and did many successful front tucks but my handsprings still need room for improvement.. Back tucks are quite easy- just jump and tuck behind. Began on Aerial and I should master it the next lesson along with side tucks and flag. My flag is just too CMI

Tit for tat

Sitting on the kitchen counter, sipping on cold Carlsberg. Felt so great! One thing for instance, I've got my ugly life back. Sitting on the couch whole day battling with online gamers using my phone. March is gonna be a busy month and I would not be able to slack. Maybe? Just hope that I'm ready for the Parkour showcases coming up.

Skyline

Had a wonderful day with alibom clique at Bukit Panjang Sports Complex during soccer. Rare occurrence: butter fingers. Scored a few own goals under my hands, all of us take it as a laugh. Took a shower there and head for BPP to lepak( slack ) 
After which headed to the stone parapet where I used to fish over at BP pond. Talking and catching up with gossips. Heading towards fajar fitness corner where we finally part.

Friend asked me to go clubbing at *Scape tomorrow: next time babe!

I had Parkour over at *Scape on Sunday starting at 2pm and so tomorrow is a rest for my sore ankles and wrists, with blistered palm 

Wonderful day, once in a while

Landscape

It's so easy to portray myself as the bad guy! Haha.. I didn't even think this plan would even succeed. Guess I've not failed myself nonetheless... Shouldering the blame is never an easy task when it has surfaced! What a great plan!
What do I expect next? My friends shows their support to the other party? Let's see...

Why must I have the need to formulate an agenda to forget everything about you? Why.. Spewing your hatred toward me? Guess it's working. End result: no more hard feelings from me 

Life

Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn't ever really your friend. And that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize that all along you've been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this. You do that. You really wish you hadn't done that. You learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you're you. You love life. You hate life. In the end, you just find yourself to be living life no matter what's thrown at you.

New term

Guess all's over. Nearly, just nearly breakdown. Fancy a guy like me. Well, starting fresh again this April- New school, New term, New places, New friends and new girls( just joking )

Anyway, English, E-math, combined science( phy,chem ), combined humanities( Social Studies,Geography ), Chinese, F&N and POA are all easy subjects. Do not drop POA as it just requires much more understanding; physics will be easy to handle as long as the formulas are in your head ( Tuition sucks- tuition only makes you think you're inferior and thus needed it. Wrong! Just pay enough attention during curriculum lessons will be sufficient )

When you've graduated, you'll miss school ( Now then I realise )

Part Two- Conversations

Let's put my friend as SMR; below is the approximate re-enactment of part of our conversation:

SMR: Why did you do that?

Me: Its a moment of folly 

SMR: But why did you say all this to her??

Me: I was very very very upset before this, and when I read the tweet, y'know...

SMR: You did so much for her and you're gonna give up just because of your paranoia?

Me: I didn't do anything much...

SMR: LOL just tell her you're sorry lah..

Me: But it's complicated...

SMR: But what? If you still love her just tell her lor..

Me: I'LL DO MY BEST!! Thanks for the encouragement!

SMR: No prob!


Of course the real conversation is much more enhanced and this is just a re-enactment and I've requested my friend's permission before putting the initials of her name down...

Part One- Mouthing the deplorable

It is my acknowledgement to express my thoughts and feelings in this blog. Deeply gratified I am to have acquired a noteworthy listening ear when I'm in the state of great affliction; she's my friend of four years and we shared the deepest secrets and giving advice to each other. And she is the one to aspire me and let me regret for what I've done. The deplorable. It's intriguing that words can does a lot of damage for others and even change one's destiny. Ain't it true?

Confession

What if, I tell you, that after all the mistakes I've done, would you be terrified, annoyed or both if I told you that I still love you?

Have I become a creeper that you dislike very much?

Things happening; faster than expected

2011- I'm 17 this year. That shows how time flies and I could still remember the good old days as a pre-school kid- lots of flashbacks, regardless of happy or sad moments. Now, I'm pacing toward my ambition, step by step, and I've found out that this evolution needs a lot of courage and thinking. Over and over again. Paving my future turns out to be no easy feat. Couple of years later, I'm a grown up. No longer a teenager anymore (that's sad)

8th of February- 0016hrs- I feel so weak

Falling apart

Had a bboy reunion lunch over at NEX to-day. NEX is the largest shopping mall in SG.. nothing new  So our lunch is in Carl's Junior. Its over-sized burgers make MacDonald's' ones look puny and unappetising.. Besides that, I saw my friend, Jie Yi, working there! Coincidence right? Overall, the chili beef fries tastes so freaking good~ it's like fries dipped in curry gravy with minced beef  oh yeah! After which, we had a walk over the mall, exploring and making a fool out of ourselves then went to CDANS in Bukit Batok for bowling and head to West Mall for dinner. Jordan lost his DSLR's lens cover  part of my fault actually  trimmed my hair and my fringe turns out to be Bangs! Dammit!! Bought a couple of formal Tees and head back home... TIRING!

LOL and I think I'm going crazy over putting icons in my posts  It's because I'm using my iPhone to update my blog and I had this 'Emoji' in my selection of keyboards. Apparently, I've GreenPois0n-ed my phone 

I've decided not to break with Behix crew anymore ( there're reasons behind it ). So I'm gonna move on with Parkour & Freerunning

Ghost recon

OKAY! Bullshit's over at Black Jack!



Went all the way to Tampines with my Parkour clique.. To Alan's house. Alan is my parkour coach plus gymnastics and a cheerleading trainer. Nice Eh? Well, ShaoYang and I went to BazGym every tuesday to train flips and tricks for our parkour and freerunning stuffs :D what am I talking about?

Basically we went to Alan's house to... Play! PS3 and nintendo wii!! Nice man! There's a game- Ghost Recon, very very nice A First Player Shooting game.

So when I set off to Tampines, my card balance was $11.11 and when I'm back, it shows $6.66 Nice numbers eh? Yeah nice but... The fare! 

Black Jack

I'm sorry, sometimes I do get jealous; thinking that he could make you happier than I can, but I guess it's my insecurities acting up. Because I know that I'm not the most suave, smartest, or most fun and exciting guy. But I do know that no matter how hard and long you look. You'll never find somebody that loves you like I do.

New Year's Day

Bahh! It's the Chinese New Year.. Had to wake up early in the morning, go to relatives houses and collect red packets from them. Eat, drink, watch TV, slack and play poker with cousins. Too bad my niece, chloe, wasn't here :(

Will be free? Tomorrow.. Busy for Saturday and gonna trim my hair on Sunday.. Maybe there's relief on Monday :)

Reunion Dinner

My grandpa's a nuisance- it's due to the fact that I do not appreciate him much.. Buay Gum! Pffffft~ this year's reunion dinner really sucks to the core. I'd rather be eating alone.. Gonna put my feelings down to my beloved Tumblr :)

The Sad Versamilitude

You don’t know how much it hurts him inside do you? Seeing you flirt with other guys, whilst he sits back and watches in the crowd. Yeah, he may have a smile on his face but deep down inside, he’s dying, dying to be heard, to be noticed and to have at least a bit of love from you. During the day, the smile’s on. During the night, well I don’t think you’d like to know. He cries himself to sleep each night thinking about you, and what could’ve, should’ve or would’ve been. He lays there, staring at the ceiling, with nothing in his mind but the “what if’s ” gushing through. He knows that it’ll never happen, but it’s worth hoping for right? Well that’s what he thinks. Another day, another fake smile. He’s nearly mastered the art of pretending by now. You really don’t know what’s happening? Maybe if you asked him “How are you?”, you’d be amazed.